I received the most beautiful roses from a wonderful guy last night. Speechless. I've had little sleep but I am buoyant today. I can't stop smiling. I couldn't be happier. More fill in posts later... sorry I've been a slacker.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Overwhelmed
So I turned off the matching, I don't know if I mentioned that before... kind of can't multitask men... I know I probably should date a whole bunch at the same time, but I just can't, it's not me. I can't divert my attention or affections to multiple people. I don't know how to juggle. So for now I'm just going to take them one at a time... but to be honest only one has followed through or made any effort whatsoever to get to know me or meet me, so he's the one I want to focus my attention on at the moment... we have another date tomorrow. I'm really excited.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Let go
Yes Jessica, get out of your own damn head and just be in the moment. Anyone else struggle with this?
First Date Redux
*I wrote this and apparently never published it... whoops...
So last night I had my first date with one of my matches from the dating site. We met at a Mexican place somewhat equidistant from our respective homes. Probably a bit closer to me, but that's ok. I was early as always and he was on time. Big plus I dislike chronic tardiness. We had spoken on the phone a couple times already so I felt fairly comfortable to be in his company and he had half jokingly/seriously said we both had the option to bail in the first 10 minutes of meeting without repercussions. The no harm, no foul clause in our date contract. lol He parked next to me and I waited to get out of the car as it was icy and I didn't want to bust my ass in the parking lot, he came around and I got out of my car and he offered his arm and we proceeded past the icy parts. He smelled nice. Tall, adorable with an easy smile. I gave him a hug when we were on dry ground (I'm a hugger) and we proceeded into the restaurant. He held the doors etc, very much a gentleman. After we were shown to our table I asked him if he was ready to bail or do he still need the 6 more minutes, and he replied that he was good, and did I need to bail? I replied that I was very good. He had teased on the phone to wear something low cut on our first date, so I of course wore a zippered up jacket that was to my neck... which he jokingly pouted about but when I unzipped it I was wearing a scoop neck shirt. Nothing low cut, but if you've ever met me, there's cleavage in everything I wear unless it's a turtleneck. He of course commented on my eyes earlier because I had said on my profile that I wished people would notice my eyes. He had inquired on the phone what that meant and I said after you meet me you'll know why. Well after I unzipped my jacket he said oh yah, I see why no one notices your eyes and laughed. (I'm a busty gal) So we looked at the menus, I wasn't nervous and he didn't seem nervous. We sort of checked each other out coyly while we selected our dinner. Conversation was easy, same as it was by phone. We finished our meals and I managed not to drop anything on my shirt. YAY!!! And then we chatted a while he paid, (score) and then we proceeded to head to the movie theater. He followed me and we parked somewhat a distance apart, I waited for him and he walked up and took my hand (aww) and we walked into the theater. I already felt cozy with him, we both seem to be affectionate "touchy feely" type people which is good. We saw Underworld 3D and he held my hand the entire movie, which was sweet. The theater conveniently had the arms that you can put up so we were able to snuggle close. The movie ended and we chatted while everyone else filed out then we filed out. Riding the escalators down he leaned over my shoulder and whispered in my ear that I was beautiful and smelled nice. (squee, blush) We used the restrooms before we left and then walked out, he took my hand again and it was sort of unconscious that we both reached out. We walked to my car and he said he didn't want the date to end and did I want to grab a drink and I said sure, he started to walk away and then came back and kissed me. Said he'd been thinking about that since he saw my picture, and then he kissed me again. Very nice. We went to another restaurant close by and had a beer and chatted. He held my hands across the table and it was really comfy and nice. Afterwards we kissed some more in the parking lot and parted. I really like him. He's sweet and funny and smart and he makes me laugh. We made plans to see each other on Wednesday. Guess we'll see...
So last night I had my first date with one of my matches from the dating site. We met at a Mexican place somewhat equidistant from our respective homes. Probably a bit closer to me, but that's ok. I was early as always and he was on time. Big plus I dislike chronic tardiness. We had spoken on the phone a couple times already so I felt fairly comfortable to be in his company and he had half jokingly/seriously said we both had the option to bail in the first 10 minutes of meeting without repercussions. The no harm, no foul clause in our date contract. lol He parked next to me and I waited to get out of the car as it was icy and I didn't want to bust my ass in the parking lot, he came around and I got out of my car and he offered his arm and we proceeded past the icy parts. He smelled nice. Tall, adorable with an easy smile. I gave him a hug when we were on dry ground (I'm a hugger) and we proceeded into the restaurant. He held the doors etc, very much a gentleman. After we were shown to our table I asked him if he was ready to bail or do he still need the 6 more minutes, and he replied that he was good, and did I need to bail? I replied that I was very good. He had teased on the phone to wear something low cut on our first date, so I of course wore a zippered up jacket that was to my neck... which he jokingly pouted about but when I unzipped it I was wearing a scoop neck shirt. Nothing low cut, but if you've ever met me, there's cleavage in everything I wear unless it's a turtleneck. He of course commented on my eyes earlier because I had said on my profile that I wished people would notice my eyes. He had inquired on the phone what that meant and I said after you meet me you'll know why. Well after I unzipped my jacket he said oh yah, I see why no one notices your eyes and laughed. (I'm a busty gal) So we looked at the menus, I wasn't nervous and he didn't seem nervous. We sort of checked each other out coyly while we selected our dinner. Conversation was easy, same as it was by phone. We finished our meals and I managed not to drop anything on my shirt. YAY!!! And then we chatted a while he paid, (score) and then we proceeded to head to the movie theater. He followed me and we parked somewhat a distance apart, I waited for him and he walked up and took my hand (aww) and we walked into the theater. I already felt cozy with him, we both seem to be affectionate "touchy feely" type people which is good. We saw Underworld 3D and he held my hand the entire movie, which was sweet. The theater conveniently had the arms that you can put up so we were able to snuggle close. The movie ended and we chatted while everyone else filed out then we filed out. Riding the escalators down he leaned over my shoulder and whispered in my ear that I was beautiful and smelled nice. (squee, blush) We used the restrooms before we left and then walked out, he took my hand again and it was sort of unconscious that we both reached out. We walked to my car and he said he didn't want the date to end and did I want to grab a drink and I said sure, he started to walk away and then came back and kissed me. Said he'd been thinking about that since he saw my picture, and then he kissed me again. Very nice. We went to another restaurant close by and had a beer and chatted. He held my hands across the table and it was really comfy and nice. Afterwards we kissed some more in the parking lot and parted. I really like him. He's sweet and funny and smart and he makes me laugh. We made plans to see each other on Wednesday. Guess we'll see...
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Dating ADD...
So the grand total so far... 114 matches... yes, that's how many I have received since January 2nd. Number of matches I have actually spoken to either by email or phone: 2. Number who have actually followed up after said phone call: 1. Anybody know what the ratio is there, I'm not great at math. Seriously? I'm so bored with this process. I have all these pending communications in various stages. Perhaps they are as overwhelmed with matches and this process as I am. I have turned the matching off for now, because the matches are becoming less and less what I would want matched with me. No offense but I think their match program is scraping the barrel at this point. I honestly don't know where any of this will lead. My gut feeling is a lot of nowhere. At least it's not all on me this time... I can't seem to even make it work with people who are at least committed to finding long term relationships. Maybe I'm expecting too much too soon. It has only been 2 weeks and the process is designed to drag out. And I'm still struggling with how to be interested without invested. I'm disappointed one great phone call was not followed up with another call or at least some sort of communication. At least the other phone call was appreciated and some follow up did occur. I guess even with help, it's all a crap shoot. Hey look a squirrel!!!!
Losing my religion...
Yes, I just lost my religion hanging 3 curtain rods. My house is old, 122 years old, it is quirky and leans to one side and has plaster walls, they are infinitely difficult to hang things from them... I cursed and screamed and finally got them mostly all hung. Yes I get angry at things I can't control with inanimate objects. Sue me... I'm Irish, can't help the temper and I am also very much my father's daughter. Anyway, 3 of the 4 rods are up. I have quite a few wall repairs to do and some paint touch up, but then that's the life of home ownership. There is never NOT something that needs to be cleaned, repaired or done in this house. Sometimes, no most of the time, it's overwhelming to me. I'm pretty handy and there isn't much I won't attempt, but it's usually accompanied by colorful language. Fortunately just the cats have to suffer most of the time. I would say I feel a sense of accomplishment, but right now I'm just tired, and I still have to clean up the plaster dust and vacuum the upstairs in general. Mom is coming over tomorrow and she will be most displeased at the condition of my upstairs at the moment. If I didn't need her opinion on said curtain rods, it wouldn't matter. Sigh...
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Procrastination... more on this later
Procrastinate:
transitive verb
: to put off intentionally and habitually
intransitive verb
: to put off intentionally the doing of something that should be done
— pro·cras·ti·na·tion noun
— pro·cras·ti·na·tor noun
Yep, I definitely am the poster child for this word. I don't know why I put things off, I just do. Things that need to be done, should be done. I'm always thinking, meh I can do that tomorrow, or the next day or next week at the latest. I don't do it with EVERYTHING but with too many things. Perhaps I should have put this on the list of things to change in 2012. Meh maybe next year.
So today I am procrastinating making a phone call. Not that I don't want to, not that I'm not interested. I just don't really like talking on the phone. But it needs to be done. It'll be fine once I make the call. Sigh... anyone have a cure for a procrastinator?
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