Overwhelmed

So I turned off the matching, I don't know if I mentioned that before... kind of can't multitask men... I know I probably should date a whole bunch at the same time, but I just can't, it's not me. I can't divert my attention or affections to multiple people. I don't know how to juggle. So for now I'm just going to take them one at a time... but to be honest only one has followed through or made any effort whatsoever to get to know me or meet me, so he's the one I want to focus my attention on at the moment... we have another date tomorrow. I'm really excited.

First Date Redux

*I wrote this and apparently never published it... whoops...


So last night I had my first date with one of my matches from the dating site. We met at a Mexican place somewhat equidistant from our respective homes. Probably a bit closer to me, but that's ok. I was early as always and he was on time. Big plus I dislike chronic tardiness. We had spoken on the phone a couple times already so I felt fairly comfortable to be in his company and he had half jokingly/seriously said we both had the option to bail in the first 10 minutes of meeting without repercussions. The no harm, no foul clause in our date contract. lol He parked next to me and I waited to get out of the car as it was icy and I didn't want to bust my ass in the parking lot, he came around and I got out of my car and he offered his arm and we proceeded past the icy parts. He smelled nice. Tall, adorable with an easy smile. I gave him a hug when we were on dry ground (I'm a hugger) and we proceeded into the restaurant. He held the doors etc, very much a gentleman. After we were shown to our table I asked him if he was ready to bail or do he still need the 6 more minutes, and he replied that he was good, and did I need to bail? I replied that I was very good. He had teased on the phone to wear something low cut on our first date, so I of course wore a zippered up jacket that was to my neck... which he jokingly pouted about but when I unzipped it I was wearing a scoop neck shirt. Nothing low cut, but if you've ever met me, there's cleavage in everything I wear unless it's a turtleneck. He of course commented on my eyes earlier because I had said on my profile that I wished people would notice my eyes. He had inquired on the phone what that meant and I said after you meet me you'll know why. Well after I unzipped my jacket he said oh yah, I see why no one notices your eyes and laughed. (I'm a busty gal) So we looked at the menus, I wasn't nervous and he didn't seem nervous. We sort of checked each other out coyly while we selected our dinner. Conversation was easy, same as it was by phone. We finished our meals and I managed not to drop anything on my shirt. YAY!!! And then we chatted a while he paid, (score) and then we proceeded to head to the movie theater. He followed me and we parked somewhat a distance apart, I waited for him and he walked up and took my hand (aww) and we walked into the theater. I already felt cozy with him, we both seem to be affectionate "touchy feely" type people which is good. We saw Underworld 3D and he held my hand the entire movie, which was sweet. The theater conveniently had the arms that you can put up so we were able to snuggle close. The movie ended and we chatted while everyone else filed out then we filed out. Riding the escalators down he leaned over my shoulder and whispered in my ear that I was beautiful and smelled nice. (squee, blush) We used the restrooms before we left and then walked out, he took my hand again and it was sort of unconscious that we both reached out. We walked to my car and he said he didn't want the date to end and did I want to grab a drink and I said sure, he started to walk away and then came back and kissed me. Said he'd been thinking about that since he saw my picture, and then he kissed me again. Very nice. We went to another restaurant close by and had a beer and chatted. He held my hands across the table and it was really comfy and nice. Afterwards we kissed some more in the parking lot and parted. I really like him. He's sweet and funny and smart and he makes me laugh. We made plans to see each other on Wednesday. Guess we'll see...

63 Matches?

I know... I can't believe it either... bonus though one gave me his phone number. Now I just have to use it. I know I know. I will... tomorrow.

FIFTY SIX!!!!

Yes I am up to 56 matches total... of course I've lost a few too but that's ok. What's the boy version of a harem? lol

Self Evaluation

It's always good to take a step back and take a look at yourself. Sometimes it's not always easy to be objective. Friends and family can't always be objective either so you often need a stranger to sort of put you in perspective. See yourself through their eyes.

This whole dating thing is certainly providing that in spades. It's given me an enormous amount of feedback just seeing me, on paper (so-to-speak) and what I have to offer or lack thereof. I realize that I don't have any hobbies, except for the enormous amount of TV I watch and perusing the interwebs and tweeting and google+ing and the facebooking I used to do. And now the blogging. Yeah those don't look great when you're competing with people who are outdoorsey, fit and active. lol

Ah well, I am who I am. I'm a homebody. I enjoy my myriad of television shows, (DVR was the worst invention ever for a TV addict like me) and I love the friends I've made on Twitter and spending time reading my friends blogs and now blogging of my own. Hopefully there is someone out there who is interested in doing nothing with me and being perfectly content with it and me.

*and yes I enjoy making up verbs to describe my "active life at home"

I am Number 4

In an effort to "Be a better date" I am trying the online dating thing again. It's a been a whole tsunami of sadness over here in Jessicaland lately. So to try and heal my broken heart and move on with my life I'm trying it out. Nothing ventured, nothing gained.

Match count so far: 49 Yes, 49.

There are apparently 49 males in a 30 mile radius that match me 29 different ways. Yeah I can't imagine it either. Last time I did this particular site I only ever got 3 matches in 30 days, I've been on this since 1/2/12 and I've gotten 49! I feel so popular!!! (yay me!)

I have of course closed a few and had a few close on me. That's expected. I talking with 12 and 27 that I've done nothing with and and obviously 10 that have been closed. Now the communication is all structured and secure so I'm not actually directly speaking with any of them. So far there are only 2 out of the 12 that haven't stalled out, the rest are sort of in a holding pattern. Perhaps they have as many matches as I have and are wading through them like me. I have an app on my Droid which makes it easier to check in and/or obsess over during the work day.

I don't have an opinion one way or another about any of my matches, except for the ones I decided to close. I am struggling with the be breezy and open and interested without being truly interested and attached. I don't know that I'm the type of girl who can date multiple fellas at one time, but I'm willing to give it a try.

A good friend of mine asked today how I was going to handle all these men. I said: One at a time. She laughed.